last night was good(:
though i hate seeing people drunk, it was a nice night with the people who were just tipsyy.(:
im glad this years coming to an end..though i dont seem to see it like everyone else..new year new start? ha. hell no.
you still have to live with all of the mistakes you've made in the past year. all of the things that have changed. all of the things that will never be the same. i see time as one long rolling thing. i'd like it if it would reverse...or speed up. i want summer. i want summer holidays..study leave. and i want them how they were last year..
there are certain things i'll miss about this year..certain things i really wont.
i am so happy schools nearly over.. i can't stand it!.
am completely dreading going back to school, its horrible and i swear i spend more time in student support than in lessons:S.
as for everything else... well its going as good as can be expected i guess. i never expected any more from the people in my life.

and to end this really weird, disjointed, rambling blog, happy new years, and for those who believe in a fresh start..well..goood luck with thatt:P.

and im nothing more than a line in your book.

...but to me..you're the entire novel.

SNOWWW!<3.
Dontchu love it?
its made everything look beautiful!
so what that new jersey are beating us..only by three inchess!
even with the snow, im not feeling overly christmassy yet.
however i've seen him,and the ice is an extra excuse to request a hug. so i love the snow for now;D.XD.
i cant believe how well house arts went, i had the best time everrrr with it this year, was really amazing, well done girlies<3.
everythingsss just candyyyyyyy^_^
nothings actually going right; but im the girl who just doesnt give a fuck:')
well, for now at least. until he ignores me, or until im moaned at, or forced into training.
for these five minutes.
im the happiest i have been in a long time.
almost as happy as when im in your arms.
y'know. you. the one who makes all of this worthwhile.
iloveyou. and i know its in secret.
oh and that 2%..you turned out to be just what i needed to get through the rough patches;D. thankyou.
<3.
x
to finish..Merry Christmas!
x

i neglect this blog.
i feel like i should be all happy on it.
but i dont want to lie on here. its my one escape.
so i shall leave this as it is until i have something really positive to say.
(:.

a MAJOR rant. just cause i was upset.

apologies in advance.
this is a rant
about some boys who are pricks tbh.
basically, here goes;
you say you want me dead, that my boyfriends a retard for going out with me, that my best friends hate me when theyve never spoken to you, and that youre upset youre not my best friend anymore.
well guess what sunshine, not all of those can be fucking right.
ill admit it, ive messed things up.
i "need help" well i have the best support system in the world, theyre called my friends and i love them to pieces.
theyre the ones not talking behind my back. not calling me a "messed up bitch" who'd be "better off dead for the rest of us"
tbh if you say that i dont want or need you in my life. and you say you dont want me in yours, so why cant you just leave me alone.

also. youve moved on so when i do why threaten me with being beaten up? tbh its plain stupid.
calling me immature when you can do that.


i kinda miss you at times, then i realise whatta twit youve turned out to be and count my lucky stars.
afterall. my bestfriend is now my boyfriend. i have amazing girlfriends, and for once, schools ok.
so guess what.. i win.

i miss year 7.

Ahh i havent done one of these in a-agessss.

so i guess now is a good place to start.

florida is just loverly.

gorgeous weather, beautiful gardens, fab pools, cute guys <3
three weeks are nearly up-but at least i have the most wonderful friends in the world and a completely brilliant boyfriend to go home to.

i have loved every second of this summer, its proven a lot to me.

for one, that i cant live without my laptop..contact from my friends helps me survive(:

also that you actually dont realise what you have till its gone, so im making an effort to enjoy being with my friends more in these last few weeks of the holiday (easier said than done, parents planning three more holidays in the next three weeks..eek>.<)

i know i havent actually lost them, just been temporarily separated;) but thank god is all i can say.

its also made me realise time flies...wasnt it last week we were in a pre exam briefing?!

and now its almost results day. which im completely and utterly dreading!

good luck everyone(:

xx

(: Just lovely

My weeek has indeed been rather lovely.
ive spent most days at a park. shopping. or just mucking around.
ive seen him most days, and hes as lovely as ever. and the exams are nearly over.
one left.
i think these exams have actually gone rather quick tbh.
especially since the saturdayy before last <3
ive been neglecting this, which for most people is probably an utter relief.
but now im quite bored, and this is a good excuse to get out of science revision which i know i reallyyyy should be doing.
just till the end of this song ^.^ hahaa
trampolining was proper good tonight :O
which is a first.
and i am in love with republiccc(Y)

and i should reallyyyy be offf now.
oneee more exam :D then a week of complete and utter freedommm(L) how lovelyyyyy:D


bye x

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i79YnlPyz2Y

<3

Just..(:

everything is just lovely at the minute, things are slightly complicated admittedly, but everything is fine (:

the exams are finally starting to be more spaced out and i can actually see the end:D

i am yet to start revision, which is maybe not so good though i guess.

ive remained entirely happy this week, because ive seen him almost everyday XD

but yeahh, things are good and im happy and i have a feeling it wont last, lets hope it will.

this weather is lovelyyyy so it keeps me happy.

anyway, i must now go, i plan on playing aar rather loudly. (which lovelyyyy gemma just sent me:D, thankyouuu )

x

(:

Wow.

you made me so happy yesterday. my life was about as perfect as it gets. it actually felt like you were mine tbh.

their taunts of "aww what a cute couple" were what made my day more amazing by you grinning down at me.

i actually loved my day, you made it so incredibly amazing. i keep having moments of realisation, it was actually me holding your hand. it was actually me you were holding.

You asked me when you stopped me breathing, and how, well the answer is pretty clear now.

you do it all by being you.simply you.

<3

I just saw him.

him, the one that made me feel all that.

and you know what

i didnt feel it.

at all.

all i felt, was that what they said was wrong.all of it.

they said you'd realise and that you were worth waiting for if you meant that much.

you dont mean that much.

well, no, thats a lie, you do, but still, i think my letter writing worked y'know.

it cleared my mind, and let me see you as you are now.

a nice guy i guess. to who you want to be. but thats it. your not that amazing.

im finally over you.

Crowned king/The envy...<3

Underneath black velvet skies,

Forever in your eyes,I see reflexions of your light,

Just dance with me tonight,

Over head the sky explodes,And my heart it overloads,

Throw your arms around my neck and don't let go,

We'll take this stretch of road,We'll call it home,

Just run away with me,

Just don't let go, of me.

<3

x

again...

you did it again.

"ly"

something i know is passed between us on many occasions and is generally ignored.

but;

you havent said it in ages.

and saying it this time, unlike the time before, made me smile.

<3

and i forgot to breathe again.whoops.

Charityyy:)

http://www.twloha.com/page.php?id=6

"To Write Love on Her Arms is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery."

I know this is random, but it effects a lot of people i know, i thought it was worth making other people aware of it.

<3

you.

you.
you took my breath away.
i actually forgot to breathe.
again.

you say it was a careless thing to forget.
i guess it was, but it is you.
you do that kinda thing easily.
:)

The second that you say,

Did you know you have a special way of turning around my terrible days?You make all the bad things go awaythe second that you say hello.It's the way that you talk, that you laugh, that you smile. If beauty was inches you'd go on for miles. It's the way that you make everything seem worth while the second that you say hello.It's the way every love song reminds me of you. Along with the stars and the sunset here too. It's the way that you make the sky seem more blue the second that you say hello.So if love is a drug then i guess i'm addicted.All i want is to have yours. It's making my heart sick. Goodbye is what broke it and you were what fixed it the second that you said hello.

<3

Wow.

I had my entire world in my arms today.

I've been waiting a long time to do that.

It was just as good as I remembered; it made me smile uncontrollably, and i wasn't worrying for once.

You have that ability.

You.Your amazing self.

<3

(:

Yet another quote I rather like:

"Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful." - Albert Schweitzer

This is one which i intend on using to convince my parents on results day, that infact the inevitable range of c's and d's do not matter greatly.

:)

:)

Well, not a lot to say, but that i like this quote:

"When life's problems seem overwhelming, look around and see what other people are coping with. You may consider yourself fortunate." - Ann Landers

-

I'll miss you.

x

Three blogs in a day.Wow i must be bored. Or addicted.

Well i guess it must be said, i get easily addicted.
I recently read that the best way to get over someone was to write a letter explaining how they made you feel and what you liked about them.
well ive got to 2222 words and ive only stopped there cause i think its a rather cool number. i still have much more to write, but i figure that i should start a new word document and leave that one. because i rather love that number.
I rather love a lot of things.
As can be seen by my list of interests or something along those lines on my profile.
I love song lyrics that spell out my life, i love animals, abstract sports, watching parkour on youtube.
I think i get obsessed with people too. i go through "phases" way too much, and certain ones seem to stick.
unlike most people, i can honestly say i have only ever been a tomboy and a normal person. never chav or emo or goth. haha.
this is a fact that pleases me greatly.
another is that i have three wives.
and two twins, despite the twins being not at all related.
another thing that pleases me is that animal, converse, roxy, a&f, hollister & ltd too, are all cheaper in the states, can't wait to spend my money, yet again, in the summer holidays in americaaa<3
Now im thinking about AAR
Your subtelties,they strangle me, i cant explain myself at all (L) XD
Now i guess ill stop being weird, bugging you, and boring you to death. if you fell asleep in the process of that i really dont blame you it was rather rambling.
right.
Byee.xx

Love

Love.
Love is something I don’t understand. Its something we all want, but never really get unless we’re really lucky. It’s what we sometimes mistake for amazement, adoration; we get too caught up in other things and call feelings ‘love’ too carelessly. It’s something beautiful. Its trusting, not knowing, that because of that one person, everything will be okay, that tomorrow, you’ll still have a smile on your face, even if everything else goes wrong. It’s not understanding, but having the faith to not question someone. Its when its not an “I can live with you” kinda feeling, but an “I can’t survive without you” one. It’s not something you know is going to happen, that you can predict, or that makes sense. Its irrational, deep, amazing, and I guess the closest thing to perfection we can get on earth. It’s not magic, but it’s the closest form of magic we get. It’s what we all want. Whether it’s appropriate or not. It’s not something you make a conscious decision to do. Its something that happens and you realise after, that nothing is ever going to be the same again. It’s that little bit of perfect we all dream of, and that when we find, we should never let go of.
[[quote from AstonXD]]
Its the fairy tale that deep down we all want.
x

The blog of the incredibly bored?

...but I can’t help it. You’re so perfect. I can’t ignore you.
I can’t pretend I don’t like you, because I do, more than you realise.
If I could spend every minute of the day thinking of you, I would, and tbh, I pretty much do already. When you ask me what I'm up to, and I say thinking, that
means thinking about you. About how much I like you, how amazing you are, how I’ll never be good enough for you, because I know that you deserve the best,
and as much as I wish I was, I know I’m not that, I’m not the best. I want you to be happy.
Someone I really admire told me that when you love something or someone you set it/them free.